Quote of the day:
Interesting man, your doctor. Not many doctors write notes on three-hole paper.
I hope everyone caught Chris's performance yesterday. He sang the ultimate love song, Have you ever really loved a woman. Check out the video when you visit my blog. I've been his number one fan since the beginnings of this season American Idol. Who says that the craze is over? It's not about craze. It's about reality tv. And I proud to say that I will never miss the American Idol. If ever I miss the show on Wednesday nights due to some unforeseen circumstances, I will catch it on Sunday evenings. But I will stop watching it if Chris is ever voted out before the final two! I mean who else deserves to win if not him!? I just don't understand why is that Kelly Pickler is American's favourite. She is just a dumb blonde who can't sing. Carrie Underwood is 10 times better than her. She don't even know what calamari is. So dumb! I hope Americans will wake up after yesterday's performance that Chris don't deserve to be ever in the bottom 3.
Alright enough about the American Idol. I've done a lot of thinking. It seems that some of my friends never keep their promises. If ever I became single again, I can't seem to depend on my friends. It's been hard trying to get someone to accompany me to catch a movie or even have dinner. It seemed everyone is so busy with their own lives that spending time with friends have become a chore. Needless to say if they will comment that it's because my boyfriend is in Brunei that I'm desperate to go out with them. Even when my boyfriend is around, I've been the only one who keeps trying to ask people to go out. I'm not saying all my friends are like that but like the saying goes, Whoever eats chillies, he/she will taste the spice. I'm not saying names but this is my blog and I just want to say out whatever is in my mind.
Herni [I`m in love.] 1:43 PM
Happy 4 Years Anniversary to us
My other interviews have pinned you as a mass murderer, blood sucker, pimp, profiteer and my personal favorite, yuppie mephistopheles.
Yes, it's been 4 years we've been together and our love has been stronger. Others might view our relationship as full of quarrels and fights. But they do not know the love that binds us together is so strong that only time will prove that. For now, it's already been 4 years. There are a lot of ups and downs in our relationship but to last this long, it projects the eternity time we will be with each other. Insyallah.
It's also Amirudin's birthday today. God knows how old is he. But he is a good friend of mine. Someone I can seek guidance when I need the perception of a guy. It is such a coincidence that I became Heiqal's on his birthday. Hehehe!
Heiqal called at midnight from Brunei to wish us happiness on our anniversary. I miss him so much! He miss me too. I can hear from his voice. Yesterday's conversation was sweet that it made me cried of happiness after putting down the phone. I can't wait for him to be back. I want to see him again. Please let time passes by as quickly as possible.
Herni [I`m in love.] 2:08 PM Quote of the day:
Our love is as strong as death. Why be capable of feelings if we're not to have them? Why long for things if they're not meant to be ours?
The quote is self explanatory. Well, love in general is complicated. Even if it's not complicated, people makes it complicated. Why fall in love when you know that love hurts? Why feelings make us behave ways that could hurt others? Why the measure of love differ for different people? What makes us fall so deeply in love with a person that we are willing to go through anything and do anything for them?Without love, life can be lonely. With love, life can be lonelier.
A lot of events have taken place over the past few days. It raised a lot of doubts in my relationship. I do love him, a lot in fact, but he has been hurting me with his words that it is hard for me to forget. But I already forgive him on the basis that he is angry and he didn't mean a word he had said. Maybe it was due to stress. His relationship with his father has strained. Well, he is working on it. I hope everything becomes better or else it might also affect our already unstable relationship.
Herni [I`m in love.] 2:20 PM
You Are Likely an Only Child |
 In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic.Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management.You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books. |
The Birth Order Predictor
| You Have Your PhD in Men |
 You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful. |
| You Are a Natural Beauty! |
 You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless |
| You are White Chocolate |
 You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in. Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! |
| Your Guy Is Not Pretty! |
 Your boyfriend is more hetero than John Wayne. End of story. While it may be hard to get him to go dancing or shopping... You know that he can always stand up for and take care of you. Which is waaaay more attractive than a few well placed highlights. |
| Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time! |
 Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that... Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him! |
| You Are An Understanding Girlfriend! |
 You care about your guy, so much that you tend to put him first And while this makes your relationship smooth, sometimes you let big things slide Still be your understanding self, but if something really bothers you - let your guy know He'll still want you, even if you occasionally disagree |
| You are a Great Girlfriend |
 When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too! |
| You Are Medium Maintenance |
 You aren't as hard to deal with as some girls But you aren't the most laid back chick either You're easy to deal with 90% of the time, but watch out for that 10%! If the guy you are with has good intentions, then calm down a little But if he's really screwing up, don't waste your breath - move on :-) |
| Men See You As Playful |
 Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that! |
Herni [I`m in love.] 11:27 AM
Don't listen to fucked up people
You are eight feet tall. Your boobs are perfect. Your hair is down to there. If I was you I would just walk around naked all the time. I wouldn't have a job, I wouldn't have any skills, I wouldn't even know how to read. I would just be... naked.
I'm so over with people commenting on my life, my lifestyle. Let me live the way I am without others interfering like the way I don't interfere their lives. Everyone makes mistakes and doesn't mean that people who wear tudung cannot sin. When the religion says you have to do something and stop you from doing a sin, everyone who is in the religion are complied by the rules. As long as I don't do something openly and might reflect shamely on the religion, then it's none of other people's business.
There! Got it off my chest at last. I'm in a foul mood the past few days. I don't know why. Prolong pms I guess. I suspect someone I am getting to know is lying to me. Too much lying that he is better left ignored. Anyway, I don't know him that well. I hate it when people think that I am so stupid like any other girl they know and lie to me just to get laid. Relak suah! I'm not that kind of girl! I love my boyfriend and I won't betray him that way. I just can't understand why some people are so desperate. Idiotic desperados! It's ok being friends but when the intention behind the friendship is known, it really disgusts me. There is someone else who just don't know how to keep a secret. Because of her big mouth, I had a fight with Heiqal. Right now, I can't promise her that I could keep her secrets.
I really hate this feeling. Feeling of insecurity. My boyfriend and I quarrelled and we almost broke up! Well we didn't thank god. The words just came out in a fit of anger. I told him that I have a boyfriend but the way I live my life seems I'm not attached. Who won't be angered by that statement right when you have try your best to make time for me. My expectations got the better of me. My need for attention almost destroyed a relationship of 4 long years. How I wish I could turn back time and stop myself from behaving that way. I don't blame him for his actions. Partly, it's my fault. I'm too aggressive. I love Heiqal. He is my soulmate. There is no one who could replace him in my heart.
Herni [I`m in love.] 11:15 AM
